So, I go to confession on Ash Wednesday, right? And I spill it all, especially about the eating disorder thing. And the soul work Fr. Normal gives me to do is to pray for you! Well, you don't have to ask me twice to pray for my lovies, so here my dear ones, is a prayer for all of you who are dealing with addictions of any kind.
We we really hunger for what is often not food. Our longing is for comfort, for a respite for our aches, and we are all in want of love. But food is not love. Alcohol is not comfort. Overwork does not take our aches away. We still feel afraid. Some of us cannot sleep. Beloved, often what we are trying to blunt is the very thing that makes us human. Our addictions, which may very well have once served as the defenses that protected us from great harm, are now the harm. Free us, O kind One.
Have mercy on us, good and patient God. Please teach us to be merciful to ourselves and one another. Give us the serenity to accept what we absolutely cannot change. Our bodies, as they are this very moment, are something we cannot change--not in this instant. Oh, we may feed them less, or exercise them more. We can color parts of them, and groom others, but what we have in this wee bit of time is what we have. Some of us are sick. Some of us are heavy. Some of us have curly hair we wish we was straight, and straight hair we wish was curly. And while we can take measures to change this--our hair will still sprout out of our heads straight, or curly. And some of us will not have hair grow at all! Dear God, I bring you our diseases, and lay them at your feet. Some of us will not be cured in this life, but that doesn't mean we can't be well. Help us to accept what we cannot change. But what we can, give us the courage the change. And as you know, Beloved, we don't always know the difference. Will you give us the wisdom to discern between the two? And Lord, will you heal us? I will leave it up to you how you will do that, because you are God, and I am just your servant.
Give us your grace, in the precious name of your Son, Jesus. Amen.