But I did.
I, too, my friends, am going into the dark night with Jesus. That burst of repentance a few days ago kicked started something good in me. I am facing my sinfulness in this season of repentance, and looking to the passion of Christ--and I don't mean the movie! I mean the horror that even Mel couldn't convey of He who created the universe, stipped down to the poverty of being made Man, and finally to the cross where naked, flesh ripped and hanging from his bones, He hung.
"My God, my God, why have you forsaken me."
It makes giving up meat and dairy products a trifle, doesn't it?
I have to tell you, I have enjoyed regularly blogging for a change. It's been awhile! A long while. I got my own computer back last night. YAY!!!! And I was thinking of how great it would be to share this journey with you. But sometimes, God wants us for Himself alone.
I also recognize my hunger for readers and the love I get here. Too much hunger. And that is sin. When I watched Lisa and Shanna release their blogs to God, I decided I would stay and tell the story! Well, there is a spiritual discipline called "secrecy". Good heavens! Imagine me keeping something to myself. Maybe one day I will share my first Great Lenten journey with you. Only God knows, and He's not telling.
So, I am relinquishing my addiction to you being here whenever I show up. I am shooing you away from the computer, and urging you to look upon the scandalous, terrible beauty of the cross.
You have no need of me. I love you.
Go with God.